"I'm boggled by this revelation," she said, trying for deadpan but unable to keep her lips from twitching. "I may end up falling down off the bed in shock."
She thought she was hilarious.
"But, yes, like that. Online, I could be something other than quiet, boring, Kathy." Much like her Banzai persona now, in fact. "I was someone with things to say who wasn't afraid to say them. And, well, people started listening. I got to learn fascinating things that spoke to me as honest and true but that I'd never heard said before and then I got to turn around them and share them with other people. People who were ignorant, but ready to learn. People who had never heard these things either, but needed to. Young girls who needed to hear that they didn't have to be thin and pretty and sexy and whatever else the media tells them that they have to be. And that's important, because it was the kind of stuff I needed to hear, too."
She had dropped her eyes again, nervously playing with her hair so she didn't have to see if Anders was looking at her like she were crazy.
"Like you said, it gives me a purpose for my chatter. Like...imagine you could tell all the little kid mages that they were okay for being angry at the Chantry for taking them away, that it was normal to feel hurt or scared or to question the teachings. Sure, maybe you'll never sway a Templar to thinking that you deserve to live your life free from the Circle, but you might be able to reach the mages who are watching your argument, staying silent, but listening to everything you have to say."
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Date: 2014-11-03 10:26 pm (UTC)She thought she was hilarious.
"But, yes, like that. Online, I could be something other than quiet, boring, Kathy." Much like her Banzai persona now, in fact. "I was someone with things to say who wasn't afraid to say them. And, well, people started listening. I got to learn fascinating things that spoke to me as honest and true but that I'd never heard said before and then I got to turn around them and share them with other people. People who were ignorant, but ready to learn. People who had never heard these things either, but needed to. Young girls who needed to hear that they didn't have to be thin and pretty and sexy and whatever else the media tells them that they have to be. And that's important, because it was the kind of stuff I needed to hear, too."
She had dropped her eyes again, nervously playing with her hair so she didn't have to see if Anders was looking at her like she were crazy.
"Like you said, it gives me a purpose for my chatter. Like...imagine you could tell all the little kid mages that they were okay for being angry at the Chantry for taking them away, that it was normal to feel hurt or scared or to question the teachings. Sure, maybe you'll never sway a Templar to thinking that you deserve to live your life free from the Circle, but you might be able to reach the mages who are watching your argument, staying silent, but listening to everything you have to say."